I don't know how to start this; I don't know how to finish it; I don't quite know what to say. so I think I'll just ramble. let it all spill out in the way my mind naturally wishes.

I first saw birdthings at ryuvi's birthday party on the 27th of october, 2023. I don't remember much from that session, or really much at all from my first times on resonite. but I do have metadata from my screenshots, and that's the first one that has them in the list of users

though, I didn't really interact with them in that session outside the overarching context of the gathering. we messed around some, we exchanged a word or two; I think I recall them being a chaotic bundle throughout the entire thing. I saw them again a few weeks later--in the same world of all night headless hosting the minecraft river town. that's where the negative alpha incident happened, which you can see on the right.

there's a gap in my screenshots after that--nothing for the next five months. I didn't know much about them, why that would be, or really thought about them in that timeframe. I didn't contact request them, but they did stick in my mind as a critter who seemed fun to be around, wondering when I'd see them again.

it's five months later and there's a whole lot more purple birds I know of in resonite. I met decoy, and have been noticing this new "keb" guy hanging around them. of course, as with many other critters, I confused the likes of birdthings and decoy for the first few times I met both those purple birds--a phenomenon widespread enough that there's a helpful video describing the difference between the two. clearly something I didn't watch beforehand. I'd see birdthings quite often over the next two to three months.

it was around this time that I became contacts with decoy--though I didn't hang around him too too much this time, since this was the point in my resonite time where I was meeting So Many New Critters. in the process of meeting these new critters, I stumbled across a starry zafara named venport

I was in one of venport's sessions when birdthings joined. it was here that I truly got to know them--conversating about how they feel about life, the universe, whatever was on their mind. I'd see them a few times in this session across the next few weeks, and it was in these sessions that I made contacts with them and realized that I greatly enjoyed their presence

they mentioned a few times about having chronic pain--something that I have never experienced nor really knew anyone personally with either. I didn't understand the weight of their pain and lack of support, I suppose.

I didn't talk with them enough, I suppose.

you never really realize how much you loved someone until you can't see them anymore. it's a death by a thousand cuts--it's all the little things. the knowledge that you will never see them again. the things you shared with them, they will never see again.

the universe has taken this bird far too soon. I wish I had more to... talk about, but I endlessly regret having not interacted with them as much as I wish.

the only thing I can really say is

fly high, birdthings

1993 ~ 2025